灵魂之旅2

我带着一本书出席这一场灵魂之旅。带着它去面对那个最真实的自己。

途中，我遇见不同的人，有的人激发了我的原动力，有的人温暖了我的心，有的人牵动了我的怜悯，有的人让我不得不鼓起勇气去面对……….可不管遇见什么人我心里都很清楚，最终要面对的是“自己”，最真实的自己。因为……….你必须坦然的接受自己,才有能力放开怀抱去接受别人。如果不是，那…..你就是虚伪了。

出发前我就知道这一次我不是去寻乐，我是去找自己……..去找那份可以面对自己的勇气。

在wendy身上我看到一点 ，

在每个途中偶遇的人的身上我都看见一点，一点点的自己，

再从那里……慢慢的拼凑出一个渐渐熟悉又陌生的自己………….

I brought along a book to attend  this “spiritual tour”, brought it to face the real me.

On the way, I meet different people, some people stimulated my driving force, some warmed my heart, some affected my pitiness, some people inspired me to pluck up my courage to face………..but no matter who I meet, in my heart, I know full well that I still have to face “myself” eventually, the real me. Because…….you must accept yourself to have the strength to put down grudges to accept others, if not you are just being fake.

Before I left for this trip, I know this time I’m not there to seek pleasure but to find myself…… to find that something that can allow me to face my courage.

From wendy, I saw something,

From those whom I met by chance, I saw something, a little little me,

And from there……….a familiar, yet strange me is slowly pieced up…….

我藉着旅行这个饲，去挖掘灵魂深处的勇气…….

希望可以搜集足够的力量让我勇敢的再出发。

I seized the opportunity of this backpacking experience to dig out the spiritual courage….to collect enough strength to help me brave through.

灵魂之旅1

最近刚出走，去了越南…….

买了机票就走，房间也没定，只上网搜了几间合适的饭店地址抄下就出发了。

在机场候机时买了一本guide book在飞机上猛k！

出发得很仓促, 可心却从容的很……..飞机快降落时，我也大概整理出这几天的行程。

在information counter遇见一个和我一样背包旅行的单身女子，她第一次背包旅行。

为了省钱我们share一台德士去河内市区。在车上我们还聊了蛮多，她是香港人5岁就到伦敦生活，刚毕业，因为不想马上投入社会工作，所以就到处去旅行，体验生活。

I just came back from Vietnam…

Bought the ticket and left, did not book any hotel but went online to search for some hotel addresses and left hurriedly

I bought a guidebook at the airport to read on the plane.

This trip was a hasty one but before the plane touched down, I managed to plan out the highlights for these few days

I met someone at the information counter, who was also backpacking at vietnam for the first time. To save cost, we shared a cab to 河内市区 (which is their central town area).

We chatted much during our journey. She is from Hong Kong, migrated to London at the age of five.
She just graduated from school but does not want to step into the working society yet, so she travels to experience life.

她是我这次河内行认识的第一位朋友，wendy。

第一天晚上，我们share了一间房间。第二天她因为早前参加了一个tour清早就出发了。

Let me introduce my first friend I’ve met, Wendy

For the first night, we shared a room. She left early in the morning on the 2nd day to join a tour.

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1。check in hotel后我们相约去hoan kiem lake看看，沿途看见很多法国殖民时期的旧式房子，房子后面就是火车路。

2。满车都是卖给游客的手工艺品。

3。看了口水直流……..

4。越南人多，田多，法国面包多，机车更多……….

晚上Wendy参加团队晚餐，我一个人到old quarter走走看看，晚上到饭店老板介绍的餐馆吃饭，餐馆很热闹，设计也很优雅，重要的是价钱很公道。5星级的服务和享受却只需要付1星级的价钱。赚翻了～

回到饭店时Wendy还没回来，我看了一会的电视，很快就睏了…..看着一部越南语配音的港剧，渐渐入眠……在生活作息简单的城市里，生理时钟也配合着正常起来。就这样度过了我疲倦却充实的第一天。

待续………

 1. We arranged to meet at the hoan kiem lake for a walk after check in. Along the way, we saw a lot of French colonial legacy House and behind the houses are railway tracks.

2. The whole bicycle is filled with handmade crafts to be sold to the tourists.

3. mouth watering rambutans…….

4. many vitenamese, many fields, many french loaves, many vehicles……..

Wendy joined a team dinner, so I went shopping at old quarter alone and had dinner recommended by the hotel owner.
The restaurant is elegantly designed and the price was reasonable. A 5 star service but a 1 star service price, worth it~!

When I came back, Wendy is still not around. I watched a hong kong drama but in vietnam version and fell asleep shortly after.

To be able to live a simple life in a city, it takes away the tiredness and enrich my everyday! =)

To be continued….

新造型

新剧“添丁发财”即将开拍了！

上个星期为“添丁”造型，在戏里，我演一个对爱情充满憧憬的女生，在我想象图里，她应该是一个双鱼座的女生，脑子里有各种各样浪漫的场景，不过同时她也对事业充满干劲。

本来做了一个长发的造型，不过大家觉得不太适合所以最后决定不用了。

唉～还蛮怀念我长头发的样子！为了不要浪费那个接发发，所以决定一定要让长发亮一亮相！

说不定以后会驳发出席什么road show也不一定哦～

在这里先让大家一睹为快：）

New drama, Baby Bonus filming will begin soon!

Last week, I did imaging for Baby Bonus. In this drama,  I am acting as someone who has great expectation for love. In my mind, she should be a pisces, one whose mind has many various romantic scenes and career driven.

Actually I did long hair for this drama, but most poeple feels that it is not suitable for this role and so they decide not to use it.

Hai…kind of miss my long hair look! In order not to waste the hair extension, so I decide to snap some photos and let everyone have a peep!

 Who knows, maybe you guys will able to see me in this look in roadshows? =)

 

 哈哈！我也有潜质当rice的model～

haha! I think I do have potential to be rice model as well~ =p

亲爱的外婆

好久没blog了，真愧对大家。

这两个星期一连串的事情忙不过来，先是红星大奖，谢谢大家那么支持，真的，虽然忙，我还是抽空上来看你们的留言。

每次看完心里都会暖烘烘的…..这股力量永远是我最大的动力。

上个星期我外婆离世了，我回家去看她。因为走得很突然，来不及见她最后一面……也为走得突然所以也没有很痛苦。这是唯一让我们释怀的地方。

大家都回来了，阿姨舅舅，表弟妹们……外婆放在外公家里。那么多年后，她终于都回到她深爱人的家……

外公外婆离婚有30多40年了，虽然大家心里都清楚，外婆心里一直爱着外公。

现在她把这份爱带进天堂去了。

丧礼是基督教式的，棺木旁摆了花圈，很多人来吊丧。妈妈以前跟我说过外婆虽然凶，可是人缘非常好，朋友很多。以前过年年三十晚家里人不多，可是团圆饭外婆却准备两桌子的菜。外婆说来我们家餐馆吃饭的单身汉孤儿寡母那么多，新年没开店他们的两餐没着落，很可怜的。所以每年新年家里都很热闹。

小时候，家里开餐馆，外婆是厨房的主管，她不管别人的异样眼光请了一个智障儿在店里帮忙，我们叫他胖子，他很笨，常常做错事，外婆就骂他打他，不过只要有要吃的外婆一定会叫我们留一点给他。胖子的妈妈是个哑巴，有时胖子不见了，外婆会陪着胖子的哑巴妈妈一起去找他。外婆就是这样一位大情大性的人。

外婆后来得了柏金遜症，说话也不变得不清楚，加上她不爱戴假牙，有时我们要玩词句填充来拼凑她说的话。我们几个顽皮的表弟妹就会拿这个来作弄她开玩笑。

阿姨在丧礼上说了很感动的话，她说：“上帝不能亲自为每一个孩子抹眼泪，所以他给每个孩子一位妈妈来代替他。我的母亲是一位坚强的妈妈，她抹去我们的眼泪，抚养我们长大……”

妈妈说：“子欲养而亲不在…….

三舅是外婆最疼的小儿子，他也是照顾外婆最劳累的一个。在丧礼上他表现得最坚强，不过却看见他偷偷擦眼泪。

我听妈咪说过，外婆在生下三舅的那一天，刚好是马来西亚大选日，外婆生完了孩子还走路去投票。因为她坚强乐观所以朋友很多。

丧礼胖子回来帮忙，我已经有好多年没看见他了，他也老了很多。不过外婆应该会高兴那么多人来看她。

So long didn’t blog already..

Had been very busy these 2 weeks, first was the star awards, thank you everyone for your support! really! although I had been busy, I still find time to read the comments you all left for me. Each time after reading the comments, I feel so touched and warm.

My grandmother passed away last week, I made a trip back to my hometown and her death is so sudden, I didn’t manage to see her for a last time =(

Everybody – aunties, uncles and cousins came back. Grandmother’s tablet is placed at grandfather’s house, she can finally go back to her most loved home.

My grandparents had been separated for 30 odd years but all of us know well enough that grandma still loves grandpa.

The funeral is Christianity –like, flower wreaths were placed around the coffin and many came to offer condolences. My mom used to tell me that grandma though fierce but is friendly. During reunion dinner, she will prepare dishes for 2 tables for bachelors orphans widowed mothers who come to the restaurant so every year during this time, it is crowded at home.

My grandmother was a kitchen chef in our restaurant and she employed a disabled to help out at the shop. We all called him fatty. He is fat, stupid, always doing wrong things and get scolded and beaten by ah ma. Fattty’s mom is a mute, sometimes when he went missing, ah ma and his mother will go around searching for him.

Ah ma was down with Bai Jinxun sickness. She couldn’t speak clearly and disliked wearing dentures, so we these few naughty cousins like to make fun of her.

Aunty said touching words at the funeral. She said “God cannot personally wipe the tear for each child, therefore he gives each child mother to replace him, My mother is a strong mother, she wipes our tear, fosters us to grow up……”

3^rd uncle is my ah ma’s most doted son, he is also the one who take care of ah ma the most. At the funeral, he appeared to be strong but in fact, he was wiping his tears secretly.

My mom told me that the day ah ma gave birth to my 3^rd uncle, it was also Malaysian election date. Ah ma delivered the baby and walked to the venue to place her vote.

Fatty was at the funeral to help out. I have not seen him for many days. He has aged…  My ah ma will be great to see so many people sending her the last journey.

 

亲爱的外婆，您在主的身旁安息，不用挂念我们，我们会好好的，乖乖的，幸福的生活下去……

To my beloved grandmother, please rest in peace in heaven, don’t worry for us, we will be good, obedient and live happily……

有人要嫁了咯～

那天我们拍婚纱店里的戏，大家发现更衣室连外面的地板是灯做的，大伙很兴奋的一直拍照～拍照～拍个不停！

that day we were shooting at a bridal shop, everyone noticed that the floor of the changing room is made of lights and got overly excited and started snapping photos non stop~

猜猜看哪一位是化妆师，道具，服装师？ （答案在本页内:> ）

Make a guess who is the make up artist, prop person, wardrobe? (the answer is on the same page :> )

爱玲穿婚纱美的不得了～高贵地像皇后～炜峻和玉清大哥也很帅！

Ai Ling looks so beautiful in the wedding gown~ as elegant as a queen~nick and yuqing da ges are also very handsome!

右边短发的是马来西亚新歌手，她叫罗忆诗，很好听的名字。她的歌也很好听哦～在她旁边的是李美玲，可爱的一个女生：）

the lady with short hair on the right is a malaysian new singer, Luo Yi Shi. She has a very nice name and her songs are nice too ~ the cute lady beside her is lee mei ling

#答案：坐在地上的男生是化妆师，在我左边穿黑色衣服的女生是服装师，右边红色衣服的是道具师！哈哈都猜错了吧？

#answer: the guy seated on the floor is the make up artist, on my left side, the lady with the black tee is in charge of wardrobe and on my right wearing a red tee is the prop girl! haha, did you all make wrong guesses?

乡间小路

那天在郊外拍戏，屋子的后面有山有水有小溪，令人窒息的美~

That day filming outdoor at a house, the back of the house has mountain, water and a stream. so beautiful~~

好喜欢树的倒影，很休闲的感觉。

like the trees inverted image,  give a leisure feeling.

好像可以拍mv…..

looks like a place for shooting a MTV

现在终于可以美美出场啦~当当当当…..戏里的男主角谢佳剑，我喜欢叫他郑元畅，因为他们都长得有点像。

finally able to appear beautifully~ drum rolling……the main lead in the drama, 谢佳剑. I like to call him 郑元畅 because they resemble each other.

夕阳下，我抢拍最美的余辉…

During sun set, I grabbed the moment to capture the most beautiful afterglow…

拍戏之余大家都在干嘛呢？摆pose拍照…..耍杂技~哈哈….

Apart from filming,what do the rest do? posing for photos….performing stunts~ haha…

情歌

情歌 by  梁静茹

詞:陳沒 曲:伍冠諺

時光是琥珀 淚一滴滴 被反鎖
情書在不朽 也磨成沙漏
青春的上游 白雲飛走 蒼狗與海鷗
閃過的念頭 潺潺的溜走
命運好幽默 讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙 換一顆紅豆
回憶如困獸
寂寞太久 而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭 反而更自由
慢動作 繾綣膠卷 重播默片
定格一瞬間
我們在告別的演唱會
說好不再見
你寫給我 我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣
默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久
命運好幽默 讓愛的人都沉默
一整個宇宙 換一顆紅豆
回憶如困獸
寂寞太久 而漸漸溫柔
放開了拳頭 反而更自由
長鏡頭 越拉越遠 越來越遠
事隔好幾年
我們在懷念的演唱會
禮貌地吻別
你寫給我
我的第一首歌
你和我十指緊扣
默寫前奏
可是那然後呢
還好我有 我這一首情歌
輕輕的輕輕哼著 哭著笑著
我的 天長地久
陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
捨不得短短副歌
心還熱著 也該告一段落
還好我有 我下一首情歌
生命宛如 靜靜的 相擁的河
永遠 天長地久

那天累极了

那天凌晨5点就开工了，一有空档就小睡一下。

我和爱玲在同一部戏里。

I started work that day at 5am, whenever I have a short break, I will take a nap.

Ai Ling and I are working on the same project.

我是一只漂亮的鬼

我在戏里有一幕扮鬼吓人的戏，这是我第一次扮鬼，还蛮好玩的。有一场戏是说要我站在阳台吓我戏里男朋友的爸爸，因为无聊，再等待打灯的时候我向街外路上的行人招手。希望楼下的人不要以为我是真的鬼才好。嘻~

I have this scene in my show that requires me to act as a ghost to scare people and this is also my first time acting as a ghost so it is quite fun actually. In the scene, I’m supposed to stand at the balcony to scare my screen boyfriend’s father. While waiting for the lightning to be ready, I was waving to the people on the road hopefully those downstairs will not think that I’m a real ghost. Haha..

1化鬼妆第一步，化上深深的黑眼圈。

2加上长长的假发…….

3 化妆师sharon帮我再加深眼圈和眼影。

4最后加上血丝，大功告成！乌乌…..我是一只听i pod的鬼！

1.       The first step – draw dark eye rings

2.        Add long wig

3.        Make up artiste, Sharon helped me to add more dark eye rings and eye shadows

4.       Final step, add on blood stains and mission accomplished! Huhu….. I’m a ipod ghost!

 

三只鬼，在这里慎重介绍，我的男主角，谢佳剑！对不起啊melvin，在这样的情景介绍你出场，让你丑丑的出场了，歹势！

 哈哈~

The 3 ghosts.. Let me introduce the male lead, Melvin. Sorry to have introduce you in such an ugly matter. Haha..

1女鬼出场了！

2我来了，看你今晚还睡得着吗？哈哈哈……

3啊呀….血没了，再加….

4乌….啊……还我命来……

 1.      The female ghost is out!

2.      I’m here….. can you still sleep tonight? Hahaha

3.       Aiya… no more blood, so, add more lah!

4.      Hu……… ah………… return me my life………

回来就好！

最近霉事连连，上个礼拜crusso离奇失踪1个半小时，后来才发现原来躲在store room里睡觉！crusso是个超级胆小的宝宝，从小就怕打雷，以前打雷时我会让它依偎在我怀里，到它睡着为止……..

因为它长的像宝宝，叫声也像宝宝，所以我常常把它当宝宝来呵护。

所以我常抱它，亲它，和它玩，和它睡……tigger就这样被冷落了。

也不是我偏心，tigger就比较有个性，它不爱让你抱不热情，比较孤傲。crusso比较讨喜，任谁抱它都不拒，还会撒娇。会粘你，会深情款款的看着你。好像有很多的情话要对你说！

前几天搬家的时候，我两只宝贝失踪了。因为我人不在新加坡，只好委托表妹cindy和juwind去找。连宝贝儿子的干妈都出动了，都还找不着。她们还去警局报失，备案。大家精神紧绷了3天，没睡好，没吃好，睡前一直反复flash back我宝贝儿子的画面….看见路边的野猫野狗我眼泪就一直流一直流……

就在我正打算回去新加坡的前一天，还和cindy通电话，她们叫我通过skype录下声音，打算用我的声音去找猫咪，希望说猫咪听见会出来。那天晚上我还在拍戏，收工时已经是晚上10点多了，收到7个未接来电，不知道为什么，我心里有一个很好的预感，觉得会是好消息！结果第一个msg是儿子的干妈传来的，说儿子找到了，叫我可以放心。

原来它们一直都在旧家里，它们钻进烤炉后面的小缝里卡在里面出不来，装修工人去敲橱柜的时候把缝敲开它们才从里面跳出来，它们三天没吃东西没喝水了。后来前房东通知我们去接猫。因为juwind和cindy交代前房东说猫咪失踪，如果有看见它们一定要通知我们。前房东人很好，他知道后还特地买了猫粮放在门口，猫咪肚子饿回来的话可以吃。找到猫咪后他喂猫咪吃干粮，可是猫咪因为受到惊吓所以不肯吃东西，他还以为猫咪不想吃干粮，还特地跑去买猫罐头给它们吃。真的很感激前房东夫妇，热心又不辞劳苦，是个善良的好人。

找到儿子后，我和juwind，cindy在网上skype了很久，大家终于可以松懈下来了。

儿子不见的这几天，我想很多，想象它们流浪在街头的画面，想象它们吃路边的食物，想象他们可能会被欺负………想象如果它们不小心分开了，谁会比较惨？tigger怕陌生人，crusso胆小…..两只都回很惨！

还想要到说如果只能找到一只，我会想找到谁？我以为会是crusso，因为我比较宠它，比较疼它。连我朋友都开玩笑说自从crusso来了之后我就不太理tigger了。可是自从他们失踪了之后，我一直flash back的是tigger从小到大的画面，它顽皮，它抓我沙发，它咬我，它撒娇，我伤心时它陪在我身边，很多很多的都是tigger…它陪着我一起经历过很多，开心的伤心的……

不管怎么样，现在儿子平安回来就好，感谢主！

Recently, bad things happened again and again. Last week crusso was mysteriously missing for one and a half hour. He was later found hiding in a corner of the store room sleeping away! Crusso is a extreme timid baby. Since young, he was afraid of lightning. Everytime when lightning strikes, I will cuddle him until he sleeps…..

He grows like a baby, purs like a baby, I always carry him, kiss him, play with him and sleep with him, tigger gradually’s neglected by me.

I’m not being biased but tigger is one with character and independent. He isn’t that kind who like you to cuddle him. Crusso on the other hand is more favourable and well-liked. Anyone can carry him and he will stick and look at you as though he has some love words to tell you!

A few days ago in the process of shifting house, my babies disappeared. I wasn’t in town so I asked my cousin, cindy and buddy,juwind to look for them on my behalf. Even their godma came to find but still, they couldn’t be found anywhere. They went to make a police report. Everyone was not in any mood for the past 3 days, couldn’t concentrate at work, eat, sleep. Everyone was thinking of them…..

Just as when I want to go back to singapore the day before, I skyped with cindy and they asked me to record my voice through skype so that the cats can recognise my voice and will appear. That very night, when I wrapped up from work about 10plus, I received 7 miss calls, dunno why, I have a instinct that it was something good and true enough, It was indeed a good new! I received a sms from their godmother that they are found! =)

They were all along in the old house. They were hiding in between the gaps at the back of the gas stove and only jumped out when the contractors knocked it down. They were without food and water for the past 3 days. The previous owner contacted cindy immediately (they have knew about the missing cats) and they were so nice to buy cat food for them too! I’m really grateful for the couple!

After bringing them to our new home, the 3 of us skype for long and everyone can finally heaved sigh of relief!

When my sons were missing for the past few days, I was thinking a lot, was imaging them loitering along the roads,eating leftover food thrown by others, being bullied, and what if they are separated? who will be more miserable? tigger or crusso? tigger is afraid of stranger while the latter is timid.. both are equally miserable!

was thinking.. what if I managed to find one back, which one do i wish for? Initially I thought it will be crusso because I dote him more, even my friends teased me that ever since I have crusso, I’v neglected tigger. But ever since they went missing, tigger is always on my mind.. since he was still a little baby to now, his naughty actions, his bites,the way he scratch my sofa and when I was feeling down or happy, he will always be at my side….

anyway, in any case, I’m so glad that my sons are finally back! Thank God!